Why the world race?

So why The World Race you may ask? Well let me tell you a story.

Imagine a girl who’s always willing to lend a helping hand. Spending her whole life doing things for others and is more than happy to. This girl doesn’t have much confidence, zero actually. She gets a bit lost one day wondering where she is going? What is she doing? When is it her turn? And the question that really got to her: Who is She? The terrible W’s. To some those W’s are helpful tools to get them motivated. To her they were roadblocks. So yeah, I’m that girl. Surprise!

Don’t get me wrong I love helping people. I believe God gave me a serving heart, I just didn’t know how to help myself. I got asked one day by my cousin , and a few other people apparently everyone got the memo but me, “Bailee you do so much for others what is it that you want to do. You can’t keep doing what you are doing you are losing yourself”. Alas she was right. I struggled with that, I struggled so hard, I didn’t even know who I was. Then it hit me. I’m nobody. So I got to thinking and searching and praying and almost serving in a way I thought was my calling, but chickening out and reevaluating. Who knows it could have been a calling but I let fear get in the way. Cue the lost feeling. 

What is it I want to do? Well I want to help people but not like I have been. I wanted to get away, travel, build a community, to go deeper in my faith. Ever since the day God answered my silent prayer for pizza ,I desperately needed pizza, I have been itching to get out there and tell my story about how God loves us unconditionally. I mean He cared about the pizza! If He cared about that what else do you think He would show up for? Obviously He has done so much more in my life and has helped me in bigger ways. This moment though was like God saying daughter don’t worry about anything I’m here I’m listening and I care more than you can imagine. Everytime I think about it it makes me smile and laugh a bit because He knows my sense of humor.

So there I am feeling motivated by pizza and Jesus and planning my future. I came to realize  I was too caught up in myself and what I was wanting and not what He wanted for me. So I told God all my wants and desires and then handed them over. Let ‘em go and trust Him with it , that was not an easy thing to do, I may have some trust issues. He did not disappoint though. He led me here and even though I’m a bit nervous about this blogging thing and fundraising stuff,  I do not have a doubt in my mind that He is walking with me on this journey.  “Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” Philippians 1:6   

That’s why I’m doing this to spread the love and good news of Christ. To take a bold step in my faith and get out of my comfort zone. This trip will push me out of that comfort zone by evangelism,which is a big thing for me, I am a nervous speaker. I will get to minister to children and people who don’t get to hear the gospel everyday. Build and plant churches. And so much more. Why am I willing to leave my family and life behind for a year? Simple this isn’t my life to live, it never was. All I have to offer is my time and my help.  “Be very careful, then, how you live-not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord’s will is.”  Ephesians 5:15-17 

So who am I? I’m just a nobody trying to tell everybody all about somebody who saved my soul. 

And yes that is the song “Nobody” by Casting Crowns, it’s one of my favorites.